Thorn in my heart

I'm back, just when i thought things were going to be okay, just as when my life was forming back together.

I was working on me, i was growing. I was growing like a rose through a crack in the concrete. many thorns, but oh so beautiful petals.

Now the petals have fallen off one by one, dropping in slow motion as they fall to the ground. I'm left with thorns, big, sharp, thick thorns.

The thorns are penetrating my heart, I cant breathe.

I'm gasping for air, wheezing, wheezing so hard, so I head outside for fresh air. Surrounded by air but it wont reach my lungs, it hits the bottom of my throat and stops - My heart pacing so fast I feel like I'm going to stop breathing, stop living.