Numb and haunted

I can't sleep. Every time I close my eyes I'm surrounded by them.

“you’re nothing, no one will miss you, you’re not enough, you’re ugly” taunting me, I feel nothing, it frightens me. It's cold and lonely. 

There are so many of them...I’m outnumbered.

I'm tired and I can't keep fighting, just do what you want. You can't hurt me anymore than you already have. All you can do is it end it. At this point, happily. You spoil my happiness anyway, crack my heart and soul and stole my joy. 

Every day is a nightmare.

End it so I can feel something again.

I lie asleep and you wake me from my nightmare choking me, dry mouth, tears in my eyes, you still haunt me every day! 

You have made me fear everybody.